something like it

hey lately i've been suffering a memory loss. it all ruins before i start. i've try to forget everything. there's something inside me that give order to do terrible things. without doubt and denial...

years of suffering

i need to rest in arms

herghh baru 2 hari duduk rumah taman dah rasa lemas dah. takde privacy, depan org, belakang org, kiri kanan pun org jugak. aii jawapnye makan tahun jugaklah aku ambik masa nak sesuaikan diri duduk kat rumah taman ni. ermm ape taknye, dari aku dilahirkan sampai sekarang ni, memang aku menetap rumah kampung. 1 minggu sebelum naik sem ni aku duduk somewhere la kat area klang ni, duduk rumah akak. akak & abang nak hantar balik ke perak, so, aku pun duduklah rumah dia. akakku kerja keluar pagi balik petang, suami dia pulak keluar pagi balik malam, anak mereka pulak duduk kat kampung, so, tinggal la aku sensorang kat sini. hermm sunyi beb tinggal sensorang ni, rasa mcm tak tau nak buat ape, pergi kat ruang tamu takde orang,  pergi dapur takde orang, masuk bilik pun rakde org. akakku balik pun tak dapat nak ngobrol2 sangat, biasanya dia tido awal. abang pulak balik time aku dah ngantuk nak masuk tido. sekeliling rumah ni mcm orang asing. takpalah. bile la anak buah aku ni nak balik, ade jugak teman nak borak2, ni asik cakap dengan dinding je......nanti aku tulis lagi ok~!

love is not just a feeling

vermin

i've been thinking that those who commit treason or even high treason are really mean it. they are not human, they are monsters that study human. they use no force. there's something distractions always in their mind. illusions maybe the correct word. looking every people around made 'em to get slaughter. otoh, they'd turn it into a fascinating idea. ideas that never be a better solution, some of us are never understand. why we don't understand? when are we going to learn? too really impressive, we are going to be like 'em...

a better world for a better nation, that's reformation

sigh...

alone..

nobody around...

sitting on the favorite chair and staring out...

watching the rain pouring outside...

listening to the raindrops...

the kids enjoy playing in the rain...

sometimes rainy days are just so calming...

enjoying a hot cup of coffee...

this window is my best buddy...

always accompany me...

running or stagnant; stream or pool

uhh hey guys n girls n hey everybody~
i keep on writing. i remember a few days ago something like a flashing light in my head and i think how would life be without the ones we love. and how would life be if we love more than one? uhhh some person just straight away get married in one day without knowing their partner would be and some person choose separate way after years live together. and that is fate. i still remember that day, my fren came to me sat down and said; ohh akmal dia dah ada pakwe baru, bla bla bla, and then i said, oh c'mon la ramai lagi pempuan kat luar sana. u know, we still hope that we can get her/him back and if we jumped into her/him we act like abnormal person. we need love, we need to be loved, we need to love someone. i need love too, u need love too, they need love too, everybody needs love too. whatever situation we are in, get used to it buddy, learn it dont throw it, feel it dont deny it, live with it dont leave it. love is a running stream not a stagnant pool.