running or stagnant; stream or pool

uhh hey guys n girls n hey everybody~
i keep on writing. i remember a few days ago something like a flashing light in my head and i think how would life be without the ones we love. and how would life be if we love more than one? uhhh some person just straight away get married in one day without knowing their partner would be and some person choose separate way after years live together. and that is fate. i still remember that day, my fren came to me sat down and said; ohh akmal dia dah ada pakwe baru, bla bla bla, and then i said, oh c'mon la ramai lagi pempuan kat luar sana. u know, we still hope that we can get her/him back and if we jumped into her/him we act like abnormal person. we need love, we need to be loved, we need to love someone. i need love too, u need love too, they need love too, everybody needs love too. whatever situation we are in, get used to it buddy, learn it dont throw it, feel it dont deny it, live with it dont leave it. love is a running stream not a stagnant pool.

Feb. 24, 2013

aku rasa ada sesuatu yang tak kena hari ni. rasa diri ini penuh diselubungi dgn dosa-dosa semalam. selama kita berjumpa, berkenalan, mungkin aku ada membuat kesilapan. maafkanlah aku wahai sahabat, aku rasa bersalah hingga ke hari ini, terkadang hati ini keras dan penuh keegoan. jauh di sudut hati aku untuk berbuat sedemikian. aku memohon supaya kesilapan ini mendapat keampunan kau. aku tiada kekuatan untuk berhadapan dengan kau dan aku berharap suatu hari nanti aku mendapat kekuatan ini. harap kau bahagia di samping keluarga dan insan tersayang
     wassalam~

Feb. 12, 2013

at 0300 huhh im still miss him. this cute little baby...

Feb. 9, 2013

huhh feels amazing, just imagine when your house is full of noisiness, full of children's voices~it's feels great man~! cny gong xi fa cai. bebudak holiday for one week, rasa cemburu pulak dgn budak skolah, kekadang aku rasa still belasan tahun lagi, yelah 19 years u live n then when u celebrate another birth-day suddenly u've to live for two series. segala pengalaman suka-duka jatuh bangun, it makes u even stronger.  zaman cinta monyet dah berlalu, zaman pakai baju putih-seluar biru dah berlalu, zaman rambut sikat belah tepi, bedak capuk satu muka dah berlalu, zaman ejek nama mak bapak pun dah berlalu, zaman kena rotan dgn ckg dah berlalu, zaman baju putih-seluar hijau dah berlalu jugak, skarang zaman utk masa hadapan. ehehh rasa sekejap je umur ni pergi. peringkat umur ni aku nak job, kahwin, n jaga my lovely parents. tak tau la, sometimes bile duk sesorang fikiran melayang ape la yg aku akan jadi bila dah dewasa nanti, pray for a better future. ahhaa cuti ni semua warga kerja pulang ke kampung, n ada yg pergi holiday. begitu jugak akak2 abg2 aku ni balik kampung. maka riuh-rendah la suasana rumah yg sebelum ini sunyi-sepi. even yg datang empat anak buah aku tu, penuh dgn suara diaorang je dari pg sampailah ke mlm, tu belum campur lagi dgn empat ank buah yg lain. kang kekejap main lari sana lari sini, kang kejap nangis. fuhh tak terlarat atuk, neneknya nak melayan, aku pun tak terlayan karenahnya. seronok tengok gelagat bebudak ni, boleh menenangkan fikiran sebentar. aku ucapkan welcome to the family utk tiga lagi ahli baru n another two akan datang Insyaallah. next year raya puasa if satu family berkumpul mesti riuh-rendah jln. wan hassan batu 4 tuhh......ok rumah kembali seperti sebelumnya, sunyi-sepi~

downpour

akhirnya aku dapat menarik nafas lega......buat seketika.

every clouds has silver lining, well that doesn't make it heavier...